Never Give Up!

Within the last few days, I've gotten some... not-so-good news; and trying to deal with that and the stress of other issues, is becoming a great challenge for me. At this point, I'm beyond exhausted. I just want some answers..... Seven years and counting, still no answers.... and new issues are being added to the list....

Anyways,

 A great friend of mines gave me a book about 2 years ago... and just wanted to share an excerpt of it with you.... it soothes some of my frustrations lol... but enjoy....

"Even though I may be surrounded by oppressors, I am never smothered or crushed by them. I may suffer embarrassments and become perplexed, and it may seem that there is no way out, but I still will not be driven to despair. Even though I may be pursued, persecuted, and hard driven, God will never desert me and make me stand alone. Even though I may be struck down to the ground, I will never be struck out or destroyed. No matter what difficulties or obstacles may come my way, I will NEVER, NEVER NEVER QUIT!

I will not faint in the time of adversity because God is with me. I am strong and very courageous. I am persistent and undaunted in my faith. I shall never quit and I will not yield. I will not bow my knee to sickness. I am steadfast and unmovable. I am valiant and fearless, determined and resolute in my faith. I am strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. No weapon formed against me shall prosper. I will not lose heart; I will not weaken or cave in. Victory is mine. I am relentless in my pursuit of total and complete wellness and wholeness for my body." 

- Harrison House


In a nutshell, when it comes to this point, I have to remind myself that feeling frustrated, stressed out, etc about the situation is NOT going to change the situation! So why waste that energy! Believe me, I have to remind myself very often!!!

Remember,

I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.

Ecclesiastes 9:11  [NIV]


So Never Give Up! Believe me it's tempting, but never gratifying! ;-)

XOXOXO

Guarding The Gates

"Trynna fix myself for society, But can you tell me where is love in anxiety------- Everybody, everybody wants to know, Where you’re going to, Where you’re coming from, What you're going through,  All that you could be is a spectacle, Following after every single miracle, Watch them marvel at, All the joy you have, But they’re too important to have all the joy you have, What a tragedy, you can laugh at me, you can laugh at me, you can laugh at me..."

-Lauryn Hill 


When you become that tragedy... that miracle, you do truly become a spectacle. If you thought figuring out your life was difficult, try doing that while 'society' watches, questions, dictates, doubts your every move. It's a whole different type of pressure, beyond the description of words. Their visions, become your visions... and instead of going against the grain, you conform.

Lost in a world that you didn't signed up for. They conveniently tell you that 'life is simply unfair,' to suck it up and move on.

But since you are still lost, overwhelmed and bewildered, you begin to 'guard your gates.'

I'm sure animals behind glass walls and bars at the zoo can relate...

You change, because you are now 'top flight security' of your gates....

your peace of mind.

What do you do when you're invaded? They've laughed, pointed, criticized, and mocked you.

Can you just suck it up and simply say life is not fair so lets just move on?

Can you closed your eyes really tight and wish/pray it to go away?

What do you do when you can no longer fight the war?

I've taken my talents to Tumblr!

That's right! I've been switching back any forth with blogger and tumblr... now tumblr has my heart again! Don't worry I'll be back on blogger with a brand new site dedicated to women! You don't wanna miss it! but check out my tumblr.... you just may get addicted like me! ;-) Happy New Year!!! 


http://mycheri.tumblr.com/

Will the REAL Black Man PLEASE STAND UP! PART ONE!!!!!

This entry is a few months old and came from my old blog.... posting this so u can catch up! Im working on PART TWO! ;-) Suggestions, Comments? Plz leave feedback! And I'm still looking for men to interview! lol

Enjoy

Will the REAL Black Man PLEASE STAND UP! PART ONE!!!!!

1^st off I am dedicating this topic to a very near and dear cousin of mine, and to ALL the male species I’ve dealt with…  Please get it 2gether!!! SMH (shaking my head)

Now that’s out the way…

The shortage of black MEN is ridiculous! This makes no sense… We (single black women) are in a recession because the black MAN is definitely on a SHORT SUPPLY! SAD…. But TRUE….

Sidebar…

Before I continue… when I refer to the BLACK MAN… I do NOT refer to:

• ·         Boys that think they’re men <-- they haven’t fully let boyhood say goodbye and manhood say hello!

• ·         ‘Negros’ ‘Niggas’  ‘COONS’ however u wanna coin it these days <-- ‘hood’ mentality, that instant “Imma make this money real quick and we’ll be set 4 life” dudes  (please!)

• ·         ‘I’m not responsible for nothing unless I sign with my blood’ type of guy <-- this is the one that feeds u the fairytale and bails out on u! lol The one who gives u nothing but false hope and smoke! 

~Now those are the ones we’re gonna focus on this segment… if u wanna talk about others drop it in the comment section…  but those topics r pretty darn broad…

AnyWHO…

The high demand and the short supply of our Black Men, really has a lot…  A LOT of black women scratching their heads, trying to figure out if this is the end of days! :(

Is there any hope that we can find a MOTIVATED black man, that IS NOT: crazy, stalkerish, already TAKEN but still CREEPING, prefer another RACE, baby momma DRAMA… or BABIES PERIOD (we know slip ups happen but C’MON SON!), on the DOWN LOW, have another secret life, bad credit and not trying to repair it! (we know student loans can drive a person crazy), not educated, living with ‘momma’ and not saving to move out, druggie, alcoholic, non-believer in Jesus, SELFISH, ARROGANT, LAZY but wanna STILL WEAR THE PANTS, just plain RUDE and IGNORANT… MAN, WHEW!

I QUIT! (4 now)

It sounds like I’m bashing my Black Men… but I’m really just looking for a REAL ONE! 

Are we asking for too much men?

Seriously?!

We are eager to work with you!  <- no LIE!

LOL.

Within the past 72 hours I’ve been exposed some type of way (my life and a few close friends & family) to men that have:

• ·         Admitted to wanting you, but to comfortable to leave their current situation

• ·         In the beginning stages : drops the bomb on u that he has a baby due any day

• ·         Straddling the fence between dating you and a white women (fyi: I luv white ppl)

• ·         Verbally told you that he wants you to be the ‘side chick’

• ·         Missed what he previously had and will bug/ stalk you til he gets its back

And other coonery…. But those where the top 5

My dear sweet Black Men!!!! Why must you play these games???
 

Do we look like Taboo to you???

Having every girl ‘under ur belt’ doesn’t make you a man…

It makes you a selfish boy with a LONG track record!

Remember:  "Eye Candy is usually more sour than sweet"

Think about it!

I would love to hear from single black men on this topic!  

I promise I won’t bite!!!

Ladies…  feel free to comment as well….

And Ladies…. If u have a black MAN… you are blessed!

Keep him… because he knows he’s on short supply and will try to act like the ‘playa’…. Or maybe not…

LOL.

Maybe not….

REAL BLACK MEN…. PLEASE STAND UP!!

ARE U SINKING? CAUSE I’LL THROW IN A FLOATIE TO SAVE U!! 

SERIOUSLY !

WHERE ARE U?

WE NEED U….

To be continued….

Hiding....

Silence is medication for sorrow. ~Arab Proverb

Yes! I've came out of hiding... plz don't rejoice 4 too long... because I plan on returning to my black hole... lol...

like Jay-Z..... on to the next!!!!!

OBAMA WILL SIGN THE HEALTH REFORM BILL TOMORROW!!!!!!

DO U KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS TO ME!?!?!

DO U?

DO U?

This means even though I have a love/hate relationship with Kaiser I will still be on my fathers insurance until I'm 26, instead of getting the boot in 2 months!

This means the world to me cuz in the past few weeks.... doctors have found a ton of stuff.... and a lot of these new found things MUST be monitored closely for the next few months to determine treatment and possible surgeries...

So yes my SAGA continues....

the plot HAS thicken...

And I am trying my best to remain sane...

But there is some type of hope that some answers will b answered....

Doctors have 3 years and 2 1/2 months to figure this thing out....

Let's get it!!!

Back to my hiding place....

I think I may update this blog a lot.... I'm thinking about it....

And please do not take offense if do not answer ur calls, txts, etc

Respect that fact that I'm going through some things that I rather go through alone...

When I feel like speaking, I will pick up the phone... or reach out to u in another form of communication.... until then.... check the blog every few days, u might get a surprise!

No hard feelings!

man UP!!! lol

U WILL LIVE!!!

And if u feel like ur dying.... plz do not call me.... call 911....

Thanks!

Until next time!

The Alternative… (UR HELP IS REQUIRED!)

 

It appears that I may have caught a nasty tummy virus from a co-worker….  so let’s say this entry will be shorter than intended!

not sure how many readers I have since I keep flopping back n forth with sites…

but u have a homework assignment

Yes YOU!

I have exhausted almost every outlet (in Georgia)                      I could obtain to find out what is causing me to be sick….

Thought I was going home (Ohio) to get a second opinion, but seems like no one believes in that dream… I don’t think that would hurt… but that’s another story…  :-\

I have been ill for years without a cure…

and it’s become a struggle to just ‘DEAL’ with it lately

So….

{this is where u come in and help me… hopefully SAVE me}

Lets look into alternative medicine…. (herbs, acupuncture, etc)

I need you to help research… I am willing to try anything that will manage and possibly cure this weird thing!

I have NO other options…

BUT U!!!!!!

Are you willing?

Symptoms….

• Lupus like symptoms (test have been negative but symptoms remain)
• Swelling
• Light colored skin spots (very close to ‘tinea versicolor’)
• Dark colored skin spots
• Anemia
• Allergic reaction to… something… no one knows… but severe allergies…. possibly to FOOD
• Hives
• INSOMNIA!!!!!
• Constant weight gain
• Cysts
• Locking of joints
• Poor circulation

And there’s a few more that I wont post… but will be happy to email them to you…

Overwhelmed?

lol

Try living with that and more without an answer for almost   SIX YEARS!! 

The symptoms are getting worse and this is URGENT!!!

Well if your overwhelmed, PLEASE do not ignore this entry…

Instead

Pick ONE SYMPTOM

JUST ONE!

Research alternatives to help manage/cure it

Feel free to comment your findings below

OR

email me: mycheri519@gmail.com

Simple!

While ur on facebook, twitter, gossip sites, etc,

u could take TEN minutes to search the net, and possibly help me find a cure to these mysterious illnesses….

SPREAD THE WORD!

I HAVE FAITH IN YOU!

YOU CAN REALLY HELP ME!

SOOO PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE!!!!

I AM DEPENDING ON YOU!

LET’S GOOOOO PEOPLE!!! ;-)

 

SPREAD THE WORD!!!!

 

any questions… feel free to ask… you can always find me somewhere on this world wide web! ;-)

PLEASE HELP!

YOU ARE MY ONLY OPTION!

AND IF U KNOW ANYONE WHO SPECIALIZES IN ANYTHING RELATED TO HEALTH… ASK THEM!!!

WORD OF MOUTH IS POWERFUL!

POST ON UR TWITTER’S, FACEBOOK, BBM statuses, anywhere to get the word out!

PLEASE HELP!

I REFUSE TO LIVE ANOTHER YEAR WITHOUT AN ANSWER… A CURE….

SPREAD THE WORD!

LET’S FIND A CURE!!!

;-)

*Another Disclaimer*

My heart is not proud, O LORD , my eyes are not haughty; I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. But I have stilled and quieted my soul; like a weaned child with its mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me.

Psalm 131:1-2

As u know I'm going through a few things.... and I have chosen to 'be still' and sort them on my own...

I refuse to be anyone's burden...

I hope you would take my previous entry as me redefining, rearranging, reconstructing my life...

NOT me on the verge of jumping OFF a CLIFF!

The entry was to show that I am okay with being alone...

adjusting to depending on solely yourself for emotional, physical support is what hurts...

That's why I made that choice...

Hoping I can truly love myself in this process, instead of faking the funk & depending on others that will eventually let u down....

so please don't take the distant thing the wrong way

Please do not give me advice

If I need it, I will ask

Promise!

Matter of fact... stay tuned.... I have some questions for u all 2nite!

I want you all to play a roll in this journey... it will be fun... ;)

Hope u will learn something about urself during this as well!